A little update

So i thought i should update since i haven't in like 4 days.
Well being home has been a blast! I've haven't laughed this hard in ages!!! Whether its with the neighbors or with the family or with Deb, Bridge and Bry watching "Grandmas Cookies"... I've been laughing sooo much! Like today i rolled off the couch and was just on the carpet snort laughing hahaha. Being home really makes me happy.

I don't want to go back to LB yet to face reality. Finals, studying, homework, work and oh yeah i'm single now. What to do with that extra free time i spent on Aaron? I'm sure i'll find something. It just sucks. Yeah i'm getting over it. But i'm gunna miss being in a relationship. I liked having something to look forward too. I liked having a boyfriend to hold hands with and to kiss.It was nice. But OH WELL..guess it just wasn't meant to be. I was so excited that he was gunna come today to see kelly. I don't know how many times i wrote about or talked about how excited i was for him to come. Yeah i'm still excited about the concert...but its all so different now. I must admit i do miss him. I mean it's only natural to miss him right? Just because we broke up doesn't mean i don't still like him cause i do. I shouldn't. I should still be mad at him and i should hate him but i don't, i can't.

Its sooo easy for me to forgive people. I just can't stay mad at anyone for more than a day. Is it weird i still wanna be friends with him? Is it weird that i'd still want to hang out with him? I should give it a while before i see him. Plus i'm sure he's not like dying to see me anytime soon anyways. I need to stop thinking about this. But it's the first time I've been dumped. It hurts. I still think about it everyday. I'm like wow i can't believe we're not together anymore...IT SUCKS!!! It'll just take time...nothing but time. Not like i'm depressed or anything.I don't cry over it anymore. I'm fine. I just wish that things hadn't turned out the way they did.


I wanna date a thug...not like a literal gang banging, criminal. But a guy that's like into hip hop and nice cars. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA i can't believe i'm saying this. But i've always wanted to be someones "baby girl" hahahahahahaha i'm cracking up OOOOK this is hilarious. I want someone to dedicate r&b songs to me. :starts singing: baby girl, you know my situation, and you know that sometimes i get inpatient. hahaha that was FABULOUS (the artist not the line from the song)I wanna date someone with lots of money who'll take me out to expensive places and buy me nice clothes. hahaha ok now i sound like a gold digger...:sings: She'll take my money...when i'm in need.
I wanna be with someone where money isn't an issue haha. i want some Bonnie and Clyde love haha WOW i need to stop. Nick Hubbardish type of guys....except Nick is white.You know...even a hot latino would be nice. I used to say i'd never date a GB but i'm reconsidering. ooOoOo like the hot guy that comes in to the c-store who is from Spain...AY AY AY CHICO ;)

Maybe i'm just horny....hahaha no no kidding!
i do not hooch around....NO HUSSY HERE. If i was i'd just call Micah for an easy booty call. That's all he ever wanted anyways...good thing i never gave it up!

Anyways...i've been looking at flights to Mexico for next summer. The cheapest tickets i've found are 525 which is not bad at all. I reallllllyy want to go like reeeeaaallllyyyy bad.I haven't seen my fam in like 9 years...IT'S TIME! I really hope i do go this summer. Find me a hot Mexican to hook up with haha. Kelly Clarkson's I do not hook up WILL NOT APPLY!

OK i MUST sleep now. Going over to Vero's very early to help her some some Arts n crafts.

KELLY IN A FEW HOURRRSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!