Taylor Swift-Forever & Always-the piano version....OH MY GOODNESS it brings me to tears. can definitely relate to that song....DEFINITELY. "and flashback to when he said forever and always...back up baby back up" It just seems so crazy that for 7 years this one person had a sense of control and empowerment over me and i gave in and fell soooo hard sooo soo soo hard. i just can't believe how attached i was to one person..one person meant so much. Now i can admit that everyone around me was right. i just chose not to listen. Now it's over and it's so weird that someone who used to be my very best friend is now so distant. it's really sad it had to come to this but i don't know what else to do. Now that i'm in a new relationship with Aaron i'm honestly scared of falling. I'm afraid karma is gunna come back to get me and i'm gunna end up heartbroken and crushed. I'm afraid to give in and to put my heart out there. I've been hurt before and i really don't want to go down that road again. I'm afraid of the concept called "love" and being in love. Do i wanna love? yes. i'm just afraid i'll never love anyone again the way i loved him. it's ridiculous i know i know. I'm just scared. Maybe i have my guard up a bit. But i have my reasons for that. I guess what my dad did to my mom didn't help either. It's just hard to trust people these days. I wanna let him in. I do. I'm just afraid of getting hurt. Plus we barely started this relationship so i'm sure it'll just take time for me to break the walls down. Hoping for the best, i really am. I can give you the world and make you so happy but i expect the same in return. One little mess up and i'll be done i'll be sooooo done I swear.
I won't hurt you, so please don't hurt me.
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